Sunday night we suspected Adia's blood sugar was up, and when the meter read "over 600" a defining point was made in my life. It was like a death. So sudden and so permanent and I so knew what it all meant. I was so sad. I never wanted Ashley to be a diabetic parent. This sounds odd, but I myself never wanted that level of commitment to this disease. Its easy being a diabetic - in the sense that you are the one on the field. It is so difficult being a diabetic parent and I always dreaded it. We fashioned our lives around trying to limit all the possible triggers for this disease (no vaccinations, the whole diet thing - including the cow) and still my tiny, perfect angel of a daughter got it.
On the flip side, it has been awful "fun" battling the hospital when it comes to managing a diabetic. I left it in their hands for half a day and I realized that their best effort comes from a textbook. For instance, last night at 3am she was 143 and the hospital formula said that she should get half a unit. This was stupid and I refused. This morning she was 103. She has been at normal blood sugar level for 12 hours for the first time in awhile - she slept good, she's eating good... there is a lot to be thankful for as long as I don't spiral into the self pity thing..
Looks like I'll be blogging again...
4 comments:
My heart goes out to you and your family.
You are in a unique position.
You know how bad this is.
You know this doesn't have to limit your daughter's enjoyment of life.
You will be wonderful parents. It will be hard, but not too hard for you, or Adia.
This is why I'm raising money for the JDRF this weekend.
I know it sounds cliche, but it's true.
Good luck with this challenge.
I wish I had something nice to say. Like you can handle it, or at least you are smarter than most doctors, or at least Adia has great parents who understand what this means, but that's what makes this so hard. You know what it all means. I guess you just need to make it better for her than it ever was for you. That I know you can and will do. I'm praying for you guys almost constantly. Love You guys. Get A PHONE.
side note the word verification they are asking me to type in to publish this is dikey. What gives?
Hi Mr Ahn its Nick....
I read your post twice and cried profusely. My chest hurts for you and your family.Im sorry for your pain....i wish i could leave you a better comment.I guess i just wanna tell you that i love you for inspiring creative and emotional change within my heart.I think differently because of you and i hold your opinion to a high regard.
So yes i miss you extremely in class and after school...........
.....i have nowhere to go.....
Know that Katlyn,Cody,and I believe in you and wish you happiness and peace.
Bonne chance et etre bien mon mentor
I am finally getting around to reading your blog. I have to be honest and tell you I sunk that the last post is about losing Jesse, the next post about Adia's diagnosis. I hope the next post is about you signing up to do a ride with me, we need some positive karma.
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